I am actually facing so much problems that I cant tell it all on here...

The first one is that I am a very bad person and I did some very bad thing that made some people suffer, and I now think I deserve to die.

The second point is I am all alone, my friends sees me as a weirdo and I cant approach the woman I love since my heart is broken (it's been a while)

The third thing is that I tried to help a depressive person that wanted to commit a while ago. She died anyway. And... I just feel so useless...

No one cares about me.

Fourth, I have some important mental sanity problems, or at least I feel like I have some, I am absolutely lost and I can forget things or remember fake things...

Anyone have an idea what I can do ? I am lost now and i feel like I need to die now......