Morning "catch up", "Stand up" whatever you call those morning meetings where we have to stand up and tell the whole team our progress...I mean so the first month was very difficult...everyone knew what they were talking about in the meeting, I seemed to be the only one lost and having anxiety all the time when it was time to join in the meeting.
My team leader would ask "Are you okay? aren't you drowning"? Lol he was very patient. I can say that the first month my team was talking chinese and trust me I can speak chinese but I did not understand half of what they were saying in the meeting.
I even started thinking that maybe this job is not cut out for me. I mean...My boss seemed to believe in me...he even said "three months ago I also didn't know anything" well I still felt shitty for not knowing what I was supposed to do. And for what I knew now we were on the more complex level.
Even though the morning stand ups would intimidate me, my team would make so many jokes in the meeting and for that moment id forget where I am, lol...for a minute. My first month when they asked me "So what do you do at work..."My answer would be..."I drink coffee and watch a bunch of videos" but now...When you ask me..."I am a software developer ... " well almost...sometimes...slowly getting there.
I think this time I knocked on the right door...very supportive team. But "catch up meeting" will forever intimidate me...plus the imposter syndrome...eish. Well Until maybe I know what I'm doing.
I generally think that catch up meetings are just plain horrible if you are new on a job, nvm if you a junior.
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